2018-2019 year in review

Well 2020 is officially here and there were so many things that happened in the 2000s. But specifically 2018. Well let me rewind back to December 2017. It was december 30 and I had the chance to see Criss Angel on stage for the very first time. The following day at the airport I told myself that 2018 was going to be the best year yet, boy was I wrong. 2018 was my year of hell, literally. What started as pain in my right side ended up being a ruptured ovarian cyst. Going from doctor to doctor experiencing excruciating pain and getting ignored. I went through a low point in my life where I felt like I was losing my mind and I asked myself, "am I really making this up"? Or was it a real pain. It wasn't until May when I was on Facebook and I started seeing posts on a chronic painful condition called Endometriosis. The moment I read of the symptoms I knew that I had it, I self diagnosed myself before any doctor diagnosed me. It wasn't until I switched primary doctor that they started paying attention to me. Once I went to the gynecologist the doctor immediately asked me if I had heard of a condition called Endometriosis once I told her I had she told me that is what I had but the only way to know is by going through surgery. The result was what I knew from the beginning. Living with endometriosis has been hard. It took a toll on me not just health wise but mentally as well. After being diagnosed I started suffering from depression. Not just depression but also my unexpected weight gain. Since being diagnosed with endometriosis my weight has been off the rocks and i think it is also what depresses me the most. 2019 was my worst year. Following my endometriosis diagnosis I had to learn how to live with the pain. On top of that I got accused of doing something I would never do, and I got to a point in my life where I felt evil. Where I felt like a bad person. But all of that is over now. Now we have a whole new year and I hope that this year will be better. Happy new year to all